Some things matter, most things don't

Christopher, Daddy and I went to Granny's yesterday to pick up a new-to-me couch. I really only expected to get the couch, but I ended up with two good coats, a lamp for my nightstand, a jewelry armoir -- I've always wanted one -- and a few other things.

My cousin Leslie and I walked through the house, opening drawers and closets and looking through her things for anything we might want or need. A lot of things were already gone, but there was still a houseful. Granny had lots of stuff.

Everytime I find myself party to this...for lack of a better term....disassembling of a life, it strikes me again how little all this stuff means. I think about people who sacrifice relationships because they're so busy working -- to make money to buy things -- but they can't take even the smallest token with them when they go.

I'll be honest. I don't know anybody like this. I don't know why it hits me the way it does. Maybe I put too much emphasis on things myself. I do struggle with it sometimes. I want stuff. I want my own house. I want to buy new furniture for it. I want to walk onto a car lot and buy a brand new car. I want a condo at the beach...and in the mountains. I want an RV -- one of those big, bus sized ones that's decked out like a mini-apartment. I want things big and small. And I could do it, if I worked hard enough. Of course I could. I could work harder than I do (okay...when I have a job. I'll admit I don't work very hard right now!) But I value my relationships. I like being home by 6 p.m. so I can cook dinner for my kids. I like having time to meet a friend for lunch, or just hanging out at my sister's or my mom's for no reason other than to just be there. I like having time to go to dinner or a movie with my boyfriend. I can't imagine being so involved with work that I would want to give that up...for things. Because in my mind, that would have to be the trade-off.

Besides, one day people will be digging through my stuff like this. It won't be great stuff, but hopefully they will find stuff they can use.

I got a little deep on y'all there, didn't I? Guess I'm feeling a little pensive this morning. Y'all have a great day! :)