I am tired, and that probably has more to do with the state of mind I'm in than anything else.
I'm home for about 10 minutes, shoveling down a tomato sandwich because it's the quickest thing I can think of. I had to make sure Christopher got to work by noon. Today, I'm feeling like one work schedule to deal with is bad enough. Two could very well make me crazy.
Anyway.
It is so funny how one day you can feel like you’ve got the
world by the tail, then for the next three it feels like the world is kicking
yours.
My daughter is
going to a private school in the fall. Can you believe that? I still can’t,
either. In terms of opportunity for her, it is unbelievably awesome. We are all ecstatic. But in a more immediate sense, it creates another bill I have to pay, which is less I have to spend on other stuff...you know, like groceries...and I'm beginning to feel suffocated.
She needs new clothes because her natural state is blue jeans and T-shirts, not polos and khakis. To say nothing of school supplies and a lunch box, because y'all, I just can't do $3 a day for lunch.
On the plus side, I’ve found a place
to sell her clothes. Mountains and mountains of clothes. She is going to be rich, I told her as we pulled piles and
piles out of her closet to sell on the Online Yard Sale. It got her excited enough to help.
It took me two days to list them posted. I'm not done. I have a pile on my floor that need to be washed before they can be listed. We have an album on the site with about 30 pieces that we pulled that were just hanging in her closet.
Yes, I feel like the world's worst mom for not culling this out sooner.
But I’m not even being facetious here. I’m talking about
my evenings are photographing clothes while cooking dinner. Posting photos online while eating
dinner. Going for a walk because I make myself. Coming home to finish posting online. Getting ready
for bed while making arrangements to drop off items people want to buy. At 11:30 p.m. forcing myself to shut the computer off and go to bed. Taking another 15 minutes to wind down. Falling asleep around midnight. Waking up at 7 and hitting the snooze until 8. It's only getting worse!
All of this, for two days, for about $25. I am staring at my phone like a mad woman hoping to see a notification that someone else wants these things that we don't.
Tonight, I bag up what sold last night. I'm doing laundry and getting more clothes ready to post. I may walk. I may not. But either way, I plan to catch up on rest. Things always looks better in the morning...if you've had enough sleep.
Gosh, I sound ungrateful, don't I? I'm incredibly thankful she gets to go to this school. Any sacrifice is worth it. It really is!! It's just, sometimes, you want to give in and throw a temper tantrum when it pinches!! Thanks for listening. The people who are usually gracious enough to listen to me whine are all out of town this week! :) Besides, I'm officially late getting back to work. *sigh*
